too fast too furious

and so. life has to go on.

ok. i admit. i was hurt. sort of. i mean. it's the feeling i got just before i went down to the notice board to check which cca i had been posted during sec 1. part of me was confident. of course i would get into choir. i passed the rehearsal. the other part was uneasy. so many pple were crowding around the board, i suddenly had a feeling things weren't right. but then how could it not be...i dunno. scarely i get into sj? and then well...i did as u all know. and today was the same. as they announced the first name. i knew i wasn't going to get in. previously i had worked out my chances were slim. but there was still that bubble there. bobbing about. then i dunno. it didn't burst. it leaked slowly. gradually. almost unconciously. then i realised it wasn't that impt afterall. all along i had decieved myself. until today. the truth was clear. there were more impt things than mopping about the results. the world doesn't just revolve ard u and me. on the other hand we don't revolve ard the world too. its like we rotate on the spot and we revolve too. yes. sigh. we shdn't be so selfish. the whole world is out there and we're worrying about trivial matters? when there's bird flu or sars. or tomoro is our doomsday. are we going to spend our last hour crying because we failed our exam?
and then u were there. and im grateful. a lot. and unintentionally u made me realise there were other things more impt.