change

im like so selfish nowadays...so easily offended. so easily put off. so emotional. sigh...

ever since that drastic turn in my life i couldn't seem to upright this capsized boat. yes that's right. it's from then. up till now. i still can't let go. im being stubborn. stupid. irritating. but that's how it is... i dunno why. maybe my confidence was shattered then and there. im just so useless.

nco course was supposed to be smth entirely new and adventourous. fun and exciting. why did i have to let myself spoil it with my emotions? why?

im becoming a horrid piece of goo... the kind that pple say yucks to.