a life of drama
im going to move forward. nothing's going to keep me behind. jiayou!
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i wonder if everything u did was deliberate. hmm ok. one day i will gather the courage and delete everything away permanently... for now.. im not trying to prolong something impossible but im just keeping things intact securing the only tangible remains of memories...
i keep saying im afraid but it's probably an excuse. i just don't want to go through the whole tiring process again. ok schoolwork =) it's not that im hardworking... eh maybe i m haha...but it's the only thing that can make me forget everything and at least give me a slight sense of satisfaction that i can never have in other areas...
can't wait to start on my nxt ilp and hoping hoping hoping that the US trip will be sponsored =) ...
so many things to deal with... im thankful there are pple to help me get through things...
i can stand. without you. maybe you were my pillar but now i've seen i have a whole ground and walls... perhaps the pillar was just auxilliary. to feel accepted instead of the severe lack of security...
arghhhh. what's wrong with me, nonsensical rubbish above... went for huangcheng! haha really gd acting and i didn't even realise the plays were so long till it ended at 10.30 ++ and i reached home at like 12 =s... hmm oh yeah! my heels almost killed me... but i still survived =) haha i shall not do that too often or risk the wrath of all the not-so-tall guys in my class =) lols.
ok i will look forward to every wedn... can't wait to see u guys and catch up and steffi my chi is deproving =(
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i wonder if everything u did was deliberate. hmm ok. one day i will gather the courage and delete everything away permanently... for now.. im not trying to prolong something impossible but im just keeping things intact securing the only tangible remains of memories...
i keep saying im afraid but it's probably an excuse. i just don't want to go through the whole tiring process again. ok schoolwork =) it's not that im hardworking... eh maybe i m haha...but it's the only thing that can make me forget everything and at least give me a slight sense of satisfaction that i can never have in other areas...
can't wait to start on my nxt ilp and hoping hoping hoping that the US trip will be sponsored =) ...
so many things to deal with... im thankful there are pple to help me get through things...
i can stand. without you. maybe you were my pillar but now i've seen i have a whole ground and walls... perhaps the pillar was just auxilliary. to feel accepted instead of the severe lack of security...
arghhhh. what's wrong with me, nonsensical rubbish above... went for huangcheng! haha really gd acting and i didn't even realise the plays were so long till it ended at 10.30 ++ and i reached home at like 12 =s... hmm oh yeah! my heels almost killed me... but i still survived =) haha i shall not do that too often or risk the wrath of all the not-so-tall guys in my class =) lols.
ok i will look forward to every wedn... can't wait to see u guys and catch up and steffi my chi is deproving =(
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