so simple it's confusing

jc life has sort of started. sort of. not really. just the orientation which really isn't representative of real jc life yet.

u know sometimes you make a decision not exactly based on rational reasoning but more of like choosing a path that's laid before you and walking it is just a follow through? not that you regret the decision but at some point u'll look back and wonder why you did it and then the devil starts talking and you start to question urself whether you really did the right thing... It's how you start to become unsure and insecure and suddenly the path you chose seems narrower, darker and thicker with trees...

i've tried so long and worked hard (i hope) at trying to make things work but somehow nothing comes out right. i don't know where the problem lies and i seem to be constantly receiving a message from you that just says leave me alone. i've forgotten what this feeling was. now i realise, im tired. hurt and upset yes. but ultimately im exhausted. you win. i give up.

even though you found the key, the person's not there...