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it's v common for artists to do self potraits. no matter how fragmented, distorted, disgusting they portray themselves as: Muek's 'Self' made of 4.5 litres of his own blood, VanGogh's ones w his missing ear, Picasso with his cubist style, Chuck Close painted in photorealistic style... and looking at my seniors' coursewks and seeing them taking their own faces, poses, nude or otherwise.
there can be many reasons, i suppose. For one, one is more familiar with one's own face more than anyone else's in most cases. You study yourself daily in the mirror; the question is just how often that happens. And most importantly, your face is the most accessible; you don't have to bargain or pay to be your own model and it is yours to draw or paint any time of the day, anywhere.
I admit i like to use myself as a subject if im doing portraiture, simply because it doesn't matter how it turns out. If im drawing someone else, I'll have to consider how doing a poor job will affect my subject. in other words i have to live up to the expectations of others. much that judgement and criticisms are useful and inevitable, one can't accept them all. it's hard to face up to your own flaws especially if you are measuring them against the hard wk u have put in, or e personal satisfaction u had before. it's hard to face up to this diminishing sense of achievement and concluding that just maybe, you hadnt done such a great job afterall.
i wonder what it is that pple have that allows them to accept. courage...? positivity? open mind? can it really be that easy?
i still haven drawn myself with short hair since i just cut it at e beginning of e yr. i loved my long hair because of the variations i cld obtain w it; and because you did. i cut it for many reasons. i had all along wanted to try something different. i wanted to give myself a radical change. i wanted to see whether how i looked wld change how u looked at me. 过了一会儿发现不仅发丝需要整理，思想，思念和许许多多的心情与心态都需理一理...
i have also realised im not one to open up my choices. i consider them i suppose, but ultimately i seal off all alternative paths. i chose my cca before sch even started. i decided not to burden myself with the choices of h3 or e eventual outcome that i may not even be able to take h3. i took a subject that was h2 and h3 infused at e start of e yr. i like someone and i don't change my impression of the person easily. i cut my hair short and decide not the leave it long any time in e near future. there r many instances. i suppose it's a defense mechanism. if there r more choices, there's confusion, insecurity, and more choices mean greatly possiblities of getting hurt shd i choose e wrong choice. by eliminating all choices till there's only one choice, 1C1, i tell myself there's only one way and if it turns out wrong i convince myself it was because there were no other choices.
choices aren't supposed cause burdens; they're suppose to bring excitment with the unlimitied possibilities, aren't they?
there can be many reasons, i suppose. For one, one is more familiar with one's own face more than anyone else's in most cases. You study yourself daily in the mirror; the question is just how often that happens. And most importantly, your face is the most accessible; you don't have to bargain or pay to be your own model and it is yours to draw or paint any time of the day, anywhere.
I admit i like to use myself as a subject if im doing portraiture, simply because it doesn't matter how it turns out. If im drawing someone else, I'll have to consider how doing a poor job will affect my subject. in other words i have to live up to the expectations of others. much that judgement and criticisms are useful and inevitable, one can't accept them all. it's hard to face up to your own flaws especially if you are measuring them against the hard wk u have put in, or e personal satisfaction u had before. it's hard to face up to this diminishing sense of achievement and concluding that just maybe, you hadnt done such a great job afterall.
i wonder what it is that pple have that allows them to accept. courage...? positivity? open mind? can it really be that easy?
i still haven drawn myself with short hair since i just cut it at e beginning of e yr. i loved my long hair because of the variations i cld obtain w it; and because you did. i cut it for many reasons. i had all along wanted to try something different. i wanted to give myself a radical change. i wanted to see whether how i looked wld change how u looked at me. 过了一会儿发现不仅发丝需要整理，思想，思念和许许多多的心情与心态都需理一理...
i have also realised im not one to open up my choices. i consider them i suppose, but ultimately i seal off all alternative paths. i chose my cca before sch even started. i decided not to burden myself with the choices of h3 or e eventual outcome that i may not even be able to take h3. i took a subject that was h2 and h3 infused at e start of e yr. i like someone and i don't change my impression of the person easily. i cut my hair short and decide not the leave it long any time in e near future. there r many instances. i suppose it's a defense mechanism. if there r more choices, there's confusion, insecurity, and more choices mean greatly possiblities of getting hurt shd i choose e wrong choice. by eliminating all choices till there's only one choice, 1C1, i tell myself there's only one way and if it turns out wrong i convince myself it was because there were no other choices.
choices aren't supposed cause burdens; they're suppose to bring excitment with the unlimitied possibilities, aren't they?
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