bubbles in the air

my dream321. moving yet not moving to MY PLACE! hmph. such a pity.
cca was ok. feel quite weird at 1st tt sec3s were taking charge. got used to it. they scold us very well...though a bit xin1 ruan3 haha. must not xin1 ruan3 lah. sj-ners all very thick-skinned so nvm. hehe. get scolded by ncos too many times already. quite numb. a bit more won't make much of a diff. anyway we will take revenge on our juniors so it doesn't matter :) lalala~

Tiredness overwhelming
eyelids closing
yet forced open
with such great effort

Mind blank
persistant malfunctioning
yet forced to cramp
as much as possible

revision slogging
notes piling
yet all undigested
such an unending pile

arteries clogging
impaired breathing
yet have to push on
I haven't stretched the limit!!

world falling
numbness around
yet I feel the pain inside
wretching, tearing, ripping...

how can this be?

our seniors are taken away frm us. all wonderful 9 of them. i love my seniors. now they r gone.

all we are left with are ncos, future ncos, and ex-ncos.

sense of achievement

today yu Hsuan, Jia hui, Jia Yi, Shinyi, Eileen and me ran 3 rounds around the sch in 14.55 min. that is the average time lah. coz jiah run faster and eileen and yh run slower. :)
but i think quite gd lah. after that we did 30 each of those 5bx. ahh. very xin1 ku3 lah. but got great sense of achievement.

chinese test was considerably ok. just let me get the marks i want.... zhang1 lao3 shi1 is being mean. giving us very very difficult tian2 cong1. out of the 10, i dunno how to do 6!!!! argh! then when he came into our classrm to give us the test we all said 'zhang1 lao3 shi1 zai4 jian4, xie4 xie4 zhang1 lao3 shi1.' hahaha. my class so funny.

hs!! where have u gone??? *hunts up and down in sch*

sharp pebbles

public duty was screwed today. the ncos were pissed with us. i m sorry to the sec3s for having to endure the noise pollution with us. i suppose i m sorry to the ncos. Maybe we were a bit too slack. but they were the ones in the shade. and calling us spoiled brats is a bit bit bit too much. fristly, not all of us are 'spoiled' and secondly none of us are 'brats'. so there. maybe they had our intentions at heart afterall. ny sj in one of the most disciplined. just compare with hq. quote frm Steff later at np,: "Suffering is fun". yes. i shall lets ALL my juniors have a taste of it when the time comes. NO ONE shall be an exception. even if everyone ends up hating me. i must have my part in this pleasure. i think i sound sick.
204 jia1 you2. don't think too much k runners u guys tried ur best so no pt blaming urselves. u did great. the teacher race was quite fun. i guess. yh was acting crazy...
btw. i shall commit suicide the day before camp. sleeping pills of wrist slitting?
eileen i m sorry. i noe u do not like her while i like her very much. becoz of tt we always argue very heatedly bout very stupid things.
after pb we went to yck swimming complex. we won't let the ncos spoil our mood and plans. hs u silly pok. but thanx for helping us take care of our belongings. i noe it is very boring. it was fun. but a bit tiring. de-stressed. i think.
went np for a very very late lunch. guang4-ed around before going home.

week's ups and downs

Mon:
geog test. sigh. pls. just let me score well. at least A2...otherwise i won't be able to bu3 hui2 that failed quiz.
dental appointment. 4 blues. deep metallic, navy, sky and baby blue. :) that cousin of mine chose it for me again. she's wearing the same colours too. next time i don care. gonna make her put hot pink. haha.

Tues:
morning heard a couple gossiping. or rather i was eavesdropping on their juicy info...
Maths quiz. horrible. really. that was my worst ever quiz. i never want to see it again. stupid teacher. set soooo difficult questions and he still said it would be very very easy. hmph. this will really pull down my marks. not like they were very gd in the 1st place. i just don't have any interest in Maths.

Wedn:
that bus with the couple AGAIN. LA time trial. hope i did well. it was quite ok. just tt i tink my summary did not have enough pts.
Art was nice. if there's any lessons i like besides recess and lunches it's art. :) we're doing painting now. 1st piece was green. painted leaves. 2nd was brown, this one was not too gd. it was a twig. 3rd was red. painted a pouch/bag? i think that one and the leaves were the best. now doing yellow bananas. hope it'll be even better:) rm duty. enqi is a silly senior :) om. i'll never want to touch those props and costumes ever EVER again. sorry hs. went home without u.

Thurs:
on the same bus as those 2 again. part 3 of gossip...
went SAC with squaddies and saw smth very unbelievable. :) the day started out not too gd but became better. yijing i m now filled with ur chops. hs is even more pathetic....meeting was ok. grped with hs!! yay. poor eileen stuck wif NCOs...

Fri:
will be having sports day at YCK stadium. then our squad gonna go for outing!!!
in the swimming pool......

Sat:
donno if i will be taking my exam. maybe not. that instructor better make sure he teaches me every thing i need to noe.

i've got a strong feeling that scorpios and aquarius peeps hit off well. i m scorpio. my sis is aquarius. so r many pairs of people i noe.

racing against time

i m procrastinating again. not studying for geog test tomoro and instead went to do my art which is only due on Wedn...

our comp team is great. although i didn't went to support them all the way but they r still my ou3 xiang4! saw their first aid short case. not bad. but i m in no position to comment coz that was the ONLY short case that i managed to watch. haha.

fri's cca was not as bad as i had thought it would be. i seems that i can carry a few people afterall. jiayi is nice to carry. :) she sits on my hips. and there was no pt due to the rain. even though that mean's there goes my practise to build up stamina before NAPFA. footdrill got to learn homat. yeah! i tink we r learning faster than our sec 3 seniors. hopefully. homat is nice. :) the only problem is i can't do it...

sat didn't take my exam afterall. quick let me get it over and done with as soon as possible.

mon going for dental appointment. what colours shd i choose? Steff insists that i choose only ONE colour for all my teeth... no way! i shall put 7 colours...haha. no lah. maybe 2? i dun want to pluck my teeth!! teeth hao2 hao3 de4 yao4 pluck diao4 si4 ke1...so sad.

tues and wedn got maths quiz.

sportsmanship

we lost. but the basketballers tried their very best and we had very gd sportsmanship. yes. it's that other sch. dunno the name. forgot. lousy sportsmanship. how can they jeer at us?! and purposely distract our players. hmph. oh and the referee was quite biased. he gave them sooo many penalty throws when they r the ones who r so chu1 lu3. push our players and snatch the ball frm their hands. hmph. better dun say too much. otherwise i will get more and more subjective...

that girl is so fake. she think i dunno what she's doing?

oh and my dream321 also went to support basketballers. saw Yunlin also. and Xinyu.

our OM was very very horrible today. my fault. donno what i was doing! how could i forgot to take out that thing?!! argh.

tomoro cca. wonder what's the timetable. better go find out...

mixed feelings

hmm...some people fall under category of chi1 bu2 dao4 pu2 tao2 shuo1 pu2 tao2 suan1...including me?? haha...
some things also fall under the aunties-think-they-are-for-young-people-and-young-people-think-they-are-for-aunties category.
and i fall under the talk a lot of rubbish category....-.-'
do you know how much emotion our heart can hold? like people who have mood swings, shdn't the heart be bigger coz swing lai2 swing1 qu4 need a lot of space you3 mei2 you3?? argh. donno what i m saying.
but then come to think of it the difference between a laugh and some tears is just a narrow line rite? i often laugh and cry at the same time...then after that you will feel better yup?
nowadays pe is softball. hit the t stand. what was i doing? hmm. the whole thing just feel over...then 2nd time i hit the ball.....but it merely landed gently on the grd...haha actually i had wanted to post smth else de4 but i've forgotten what i had wanted to post....oh ya and zhang1 lao3 shi1 noes my name le...i think.
oh and talking bout him, today he said smth bout seniority in ny. yes yes. and our whole class was in a very heated argument. i tink i basically respect them lah. i mean why not? but i want the juniors to respect us too. even though respect IS to be earned. but u noe what's this called? zhang1 lao3 shi1 says it's the vicious cycle.

?

Are you an angel
or a devil in disguise?
Do you bring hope
or gather disappointment?
Are you from the clouds beyond
or from the gates of hell?
Do you bring in rainbows
or do you arise storms?

Without angels
will there be devils?
Without hope
will there be disappointment?
without heaven
then where is hell?
without storms
there won't be rainbows.

So does that mean
without you
there won't be me?

dream321

hmm...i dunno why each time i can't think of a title, i type that...

*sighs dreamily*...this is soooo my life. today was bliss. it didn't start off so fine though. but still:
1) it was raining today. i love rains!!!
Silver rain falling......
2)i was early today
3)today our squad ic asked me if our squad was on the verge of breaking up,
i said: "Of course not."
4)first period was pe and i ran to vent out all my anger. so i was happy for the rest of the day. or so i say...
5)didn't stay back today. i just can't bear the canteen food anymore...
6)there was no lang arts today!!! yeah. i just can't stand lang arts anymore. oh no. i never knew i would live to say this. Languages are supposed to be my strong subjects!!! were supposed...
7) tomorrow i will spend my afternoon painting. yeah. i m going to ruin my art grades. no i m not. no. :)
8) NO HOMEWORK!!!!! yeah! although i tink zhang1 lao3 shi1 said smth bout miao2 xie3 wen2. haha. whatever. today Celia is going to enjoy herself. so that means NO DOING OF HOMEWORK NO MATTER WHAT!! hahaha.
9) today is my birthday! yes. *blinks innocently* not meh? of course it is!
unlucky people like me have birhtdays on si4 yue4 si4 hao4....haha
10)i just feel gd today *winks*:)