the worst has yet to come

hello. 35 days to eoys i think. sigh. guess what? bad me still haven't revised properly. this wk i m really really going to do bio and chi. yes yes. i WILL.

combinations. everyone is song2 yong3-ing me. hmph. i don't think i'm gonna change my mind le. yes. bsp? nobody seems to be taking....oh well. i dont think i can cope anyway. art. yay. i think im taking it as 'o' level. then got cert mah. what else? hmm yes time trial this fri again. bleargh. lots of revision to do.

nxt time when i'm sec 3 and i become an nco, the first thing that i'm going to do is to thank all our ncos and ex-ncos. coz then i'll really understand their ku3 xin1. sigh all my friends think sj very sadistic lor. but they'll never understand......haha. the JOY in scolding and getting scolded! hahahaha. ok. ignore that. that was crap.

EOYS

40 days to EOYs.....wk 9 already.

i haven't started revising yet. oh no.

ok. this wk i will:
hmm. what shd i do?
i don't even know whether sec 1 work is tested.
whatever. i'll just revise bio. yeah. bio is so nice.
my mom wants me to tackle my weaker subjects first (maths and physics) but i don't think i can face them for 1 sec before puking....
- bio first chap
- maths first and second chapter learnt do workbk...
ok. i'll do physics nxt wk. haha. i think my electricity's still ok. at least better than force. sigh. 17/40. is that nice or what? i got 17/50 for maths re-test....maths test this fri. yes another thing to do:
- revise for maths test (do past yr test paper and workbk + revise formulae)
my aim for this test: get >30 preferably 35. A2. gd. sigh. i just don't get why my results are dropping. I NEED TO GET INTO IP OR DIE TRYING! everyone is better than me. i know comparing is the most stupid thing to do. but ah well... i m stupid.

confused

i m so confused.

EOYS

guess what? it's 46 days to EOYS.....man. so near.

so I have decided:
-only blog once a wk
-each time i blog i will type all the revision i have to do for the wk

k here goes.. (hopefully to be finished this wk)

-revise for hist test which is tomoro
-revise for geog test which is on thurs
-clear that giant pile of rotting wkshts by filing them neatly

and of course all the hw that i have to do....sigh. home econs by this wedn. art by fri. must get my colour scheme and finish waxing plus put 1st layer of dye. pe assesment on fri. i need practice. i can't play badminton.

If you fall

If you fall

Do you know the feeling
when you're captured in
a prisoner's cell
banging against the door
your cletched fists bleeding
yet no one responds

Do you know the feeling
when you're trapped in
a sea of troubles
your body seems heavier
your face is turning blue
yet no one lifts you up

Do you know the feeling
when you're lost in
a place full of swirling sand
the sun set ablaze
you're feeling faint
yet no one will catch you

If you fall...

This is the feeling
I'm feeling now
Of abandonment, of being
trapped and lost
I'm deluding myself that you care
but it's just a one-sided affair

imagine

i don't know what's going on with me. is it just my imagination? I wish things were like they were before. give me back everything i lost. i don't want to be trapped in this nightmare. they are getting worse.

bittersweet memories

And I close my eyes
trying to imagine
life without you
it's not too easy
yet not too hard
it's just so full of agony

And then I open my eyes
to see the world around
reality sinking right
through me
I wonder why i've never
thought of cherishing more

Oh, if only time
can stop and turn around
and walk me down
the path of my mistakes
footprints carved into the
sand erasing all of them

Yet now it's all too late
my mourning and grief
cannot mend the scars
and ironically, the only
cure is time...
soon all will be washed away

Hopefully I step ahead
I'm scared of regret
to this big first step
but i'm left with no
choice but to bury
those memories, within me

Deep down, they'll stay
and never rise again
because i don't ever
want to experience
the same misery and pain
never, ever again...

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