cmon girl.

grades. grades. grades.

in ny my sense of satisfaction was always very high. i slp less than 5 hrs everyday during some times. but always, i knew where i was heading, i knew that even though i was working so freaking hard, eventually, i'll still get something. when i painstakingly finish a report, a project....
because the eventual grade never mattered. when i printed out the document, i have already graded myself. ny life was busy... so so busy.

in hc.. now that's where i understood the meaning of hectic. hectic brings in the connotation of not just busy, but a frantic mad rush, confusing kind of life. that's what hc seems to be. i don't know where im going more than half the time. i ask myself what im doing and never seem to find the answer. i work harder than those ard me but achieve less. much less. everything seems to be abt grades. abt testimonials. abt doing for the sake of doing. i signed up for bio, chem, math, art but half the time i feel like im in greek classes. it seems my goal is to just do well, academically. my As and then my uni....

but a goal shdn be something you have to want. it's something you want to have...

motivation list

too many things due next week. but it's ok, i will survive. heaven loves to mock at us. i have to survive to endure greater tortures ahead like promos and As...

List of Things to do after promos:

-get myself a cheesecake and eat it too

-swim and swim like crazy

-do something radical to myself

-go kbox and refuse to leave

-watch a movie... no i meant a movie marathon

-shop and get everyone their birthday presents lols

-go out with friends to have nice looonnng chats =)

-for once, choose dare when playing truth or dare lols

-get exposed to new nice songs!

-read! omg! hahaz

-heck care bout pw

-follow through with previous point

-retract previous point and the one before that

-do cip hahaz

-freaking get some exercise lols

-..go overseas? (haiz this wld most prob mean malaysia)

-get a job

-get money

-play with my wardrobe

-paint

-go for concerts. dances. exhibitions. dinners. outings. ANYTHING.

and do all these with you...

apoptosis

self explanatory.

hello from mars

we belong to different worlds.

can pple of such diverse backgrounds, culture and beliefs ever co-exist?

the rainbow connection

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
and what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
and rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Who said that every wish
would be heard and answered
when wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it.
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
and what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

All of us under its spell. We know that it's probably magic.

Have you been half asleep and have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
Is this the sweet sound that called the young sailors.
The voice might be one and the same.
I've heard it too many times to ignore it.
It's something that I'm supposed to be.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.