sour

that's the feeling inside u get when u want to cry but u can't.

u know what, school's going to start. i don't want it to. haven't the holidays' just started yesterday? and i don't want to go there alone. yet i want school to start again. at least i'll be numb with work again. then i don't have to think and i don't have to feel.

don't understand why ma'am wenhui is an aquarian when she sounds so much like a scorp.

All i want for christmas is u.

By mariah carey

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
And I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
And I, I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe

I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won't even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click

Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby, all I want for Christmas is you

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens'
Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me
The one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me, quickly

I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just wanna see my baby
Standing right outside my door

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby, all I want for Christmas is you

quiz

some particular person just asked me to post this...

Write down 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see in school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.
1. celia
2. valerie
3. ferly
4. you
5. her
6. lynette
7. xinying
8. alexteo
9. heng
10. celia
11. ferly
12. xinyu
13. you
14. ferly
15. xinyu
So what do you think of number 4?
HAHAHA! What more can I say? *beams
On a scale of 1-10, rate how good-looking number 5 is.
DUH. of cuz 10 lah! haha(: *beams once again
Will you ever fall for number 11?
HAHA. erm. erm. NO! I’m not a les leh.
Honestly, if number 8 met with an accident, what would you do?
erm. i think at the most, i'll go visit him in the hospital. good enough? haha
What sport would you play with number 12?
erm. haha. i dunno! i really dunno! basketball?!
What if number 1 got a boyfriend?
ERM. WOW. haha. she cannot have a boyfriend cuz she's got a girlfriend already! Cannot be shui xing yang hua mahh!
How would you feel if number 4 slapped you on your face?
HORROR! oh my! ): bleargh. CRY.
How nice is number 6?
HAHA. VERY NICE!! Another pro ai qing zhuan jia(: my deskmate leh! BROWN! Haha(: *beams
Do you hate number 9?
no lahh. haha. she's funny at times. heng and her weird actions. HAHA. i think i like her(:
How much do you like number 2?
(: do i need to say?
Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
NO! NO! NO! *laughs hysterically HAHAHA!
Would 14 one day kill you?
ERM. she tried killing me countless no. of times but i SURVIVED! haha(: she won't one lor. bet she love me like nuts! HAHA.
Who do you like more? 3 or 10?
erm. i’m GREEDY and FAIR (not as in skin colour hor!). haha. i LOVE both all the same(:
Who are you closest or most similar to in all the 15?
I dunno. bleargh.
What is the similarity between 15 +you?
i dont see any! haha(: oh. YESYES! we’re all NICE and ADORABLE people(: my fellow sqmate cum soulmate cum crapmate cum hao da dang cum innocent silly mushroom leh! *beams

change

im like so selfish nowadays...so easily offended. so easily put off. so emotional. sigh...

ever since that drastic turn in my life i couldn't seem to upright this capsized boat. yes that's right. it's from then. up till now. i still can't let go. im being stubborn. stupid. irritating. but that's how it is... i dunno why. maybe my confidence was shattered then and there. im just so useless.

nco course was supposed to be smth entirely new and adventourous. fun and exciting. why did i have to let myself spoil it with my emotions? why?

im becoming a horrid piece of goo... the kind that pple say yucks to.

a single long-stemmed rose

i desperately need love. just realised i gave too much away. there's nothing left for myself.

come clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth
The sun, the stars all aligned
Cause perfect, doesn't feel so perfect
Tryin' to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

[chorus]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

(rain fall, rain fall)
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Tryin' to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin (oh)
Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Than always staying in
Feel the wind

[chorus]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming

[chorus]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

tough times don't last tough men do

camp was...undescribable.
zone level was different compared to corp level.
hmm. can't say which one is more strict also...i suppose pple in zone can be very nice but can also be very mean. wheares is corp...
actually, maybe it was more slack than nysj camp. but surprisingly, it's more tiring...or maybe i've just forgotten how tired i was after nysj camp. the bt route was very gd. challenging enough. triarge was...rather disappointing. campfire was nice everyone seemed to go a little abnormal during that time....
in camp, it's no more uncertainty. it's knowledge and a knowledge with certainty.
and i should have enjoyed myself more instead of letting my mind wander.
oh yes, and sometimes in camp you see a different side of a person that you'be never seen before. the sight bewilders you.
and let my tears fall.

time runs true in the House but meanders elsewhere

just finished typing the script. bleargh. i reached home almost at 8 mah. then by the time i finish typing so late le. hope they can print it...

ok. so camp's around the corner le. yes. i have to face up to the fact. the truth is undeniable. haven't really packed yet... then there's all the camp things that are yet to be settled. my mind is in a whirl.

then there's moi stuff. still haven't got my visual aids. :( no time mah... i have to get it done by thurs... after camp i won't be in the mood.

Furthurmore there's the commonwealth essay. how nice. 1000 to 1500 words. :( how many pgs?? i need to be l-o-n-g-w-i-n-e-d le. hopefully will get into the momentum soon when i start.

oh yes. and have to do the cpb thing too.

all in all. im not too free. but at least i have constructive things to do now. it's not like i don't like housework. but i really can't stand it when she starts nagging.