one of those things

everything is so freaking hard. y m i so stubborn lols.

lose what you cannot gain to gain what you cannot lose. be strong, i'll pull through...

it's one of those blinding shooting stars, but blink back those tears and u'll see clearly again. forget bout the star, it's out of reach.

"and i got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming ard
my faith in you was fading..."

a farmer ploughing through...

i can't believe i used to summarise all my issues for IH (env sustainability, poverty and hunger, gender inequality and public health) into just 7 main points each. ok fine i dao-ed nation states, welfare and err smth else issit globalisation? hahaz but that's coz we alr knew we cld spot 4 topics to focus... GP anything in e world can be tested lols hmm although of coz there r always hot favourites...

so baihui was saying must get out all e old IH notes to read then i was like siannsss still have to survive through mountains of dust and mould to acquire knowledge and then i realise i alr summarised them into (less dusty) cards haha =) yay i love myself.

HAIZ. woman! jiayou... chiong through and u'll be ok =s. i jus have to go through gp, chem and aep and e rest will be a breeze lols math i know a lot depends on my mental state on e day itself and bio is just like i'll die anyway so it doesn't matter =)

chem. 2h 45 min, aep. 3h on same day.... SIANZ. maybe i'll fall asleep dur aep paper.... no! must read e instructions that says 2 choose 1 lolsss. i dun wanna curse loudly halfway through e paper...

i miss paul tan. crap im openly admitting on this world wide web.... =( his lessons r really memorable zzzz. which teacher will dump u into a comp lab, get u to search on e latest stuff (while chatting on gmail) and go on and on bout crap (with embedded useful stuff) and crack horny jokes, curse, bitch, swear in a way in which he's perfectly at ease? i wonder where he got all those confidence and trust..

power of suggestion

jus talked to eileen after so freaking long.... i realise how much she's moved forward while i can't even find where im standing lols. oh ya and also found out how much i knew bout her class coz more than half r of her classmates r mine too lols. k woman, jiayou... i knew u were meant to achieve great things =)

i seldom talk abt friendship, unlike kyna hahaz. almost every other post she mentions her social circle and almost every month i see my name in her posts hahaz (thanx dear). most that i envy how she's able to express her feelings so openly bout her friends, i wldn be able to do so with mine... i just feel unnatural... hmm. this is so ironic, here i m talking bout my gd friends and saying how i seldom talk abt friendship.

for aep this whole yr i've been circling ard the playing of materials that are normally discarded, plastic items in particular. i've been desperately trying to turn all this trash into something aesthetically pleasing. much that i find satisfaction in doing so, sometimes i just feel like rolling my eyes and chunking them into the place where they belong - the bin. lols.

why do i bother creating something out of nothing when i know it'll never be possible?

recently dur break we were discussing bout how when you r dying u'll sms or call all e pple u know and tell them u love them because u'll never get e chance to do so ever again. and if u have a limited time say u're trapped in a building and a few min later it's gonna collapse u'll have to consider who r e pple really impt to u and that u really love... i guess one will never know how u'll react in such a situation until u r really in such a situation. so i suppose i'll never want to know hahaz. in any case im never one to explicitly express my feelings to anyone. i take the initiative a lot lols but also saying things in a very subtle way ( omg im being ironic again like explicitly saying im subtle o.O but yeah. i think i've made my point. ) it's how i feel if everything's displayed so clearly, then e meaning is lost.

it is the power of suggestion that is truly alluring...

find the operating word

you know how when you're sick for example having a cold and because your ear, nose throat are all linked together, having a running nose would mean you also can't taste properly?

everything is bland. to me.

i just realised sickness can mean anywhere from a cold, a flu, a fever to a hole in the heart, and that this blandness not only applies to food, but also to life...

yeah. im a self-centered brat.

Holidays have started in sense, although i don't feel it. lols. my schedule is really packed. it's only the 3rd day of my schedule and i've carried over stuff frm the first day and second day and third day stuff r also incomplete lols i think i was too ambitious while planning lols.

i just realised they're showing stairway to heaven during weekdays at the time just before i normally reach home lols. haiz.

never believe in miracles. they just make u bleed.