Dont say you love me

Sung by: The Corrs

I've seen this place a thousand times
I've felt this all before
And everytime you call
I've waited there as though you
might not call at all

I know this face I'm wearing now
I've seen this in my eyes
and though it feels so great
I'm still afraid
that you'll be leaving anytime

We've done this once and then
you closed the door
don't let me fall again for nothing more

Don't say you love me unless forever
don't tell me you need me if you're not gonna stay
don't give me this feeling i'll only believe it
make it real or take it all away

I've caught myself smiling alone
just thinking of your voice
and dreaming of your
touch is just too much
you know i don't have
any choice

*chorus*

missing before

oh no oh no oh no.

i just realised.

this is bad....

i forgot to take out my sj nametag frm my blouse before washing it. oh no. now it's sorta chipped at the edges. poor nametag, imagine being tossed and turned around and around and around in a dark wet place all alone. sigh. sorry nametag. :(

last night was...haha. opening night! at first like nobody like that...then suddenly so many pple, esp after interval. everyone was l-a-t-e lah. HS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! where on earth did u go? do u know i was worried? and poor me had to take bus home ALONE? hmph. the performances were quite nice lah. ok. even though the sec 1s' are a bit...hehe. nvm, we were like that in sec 1 too.

too fast too furious

and so. life has to go on.

ok. i admit. i was hurt. sort of. i mean. it's the feeling i got just before i went down to the notice board to check which cca i had been posted during sec 1. part of me was confident. of course i would get into choir. i passed the rehearsal. the other part was uneasy. so many pple were crowding around the board, i suddenly had a feeling things weren't right. but then how could it not be...i dunno. scarely i get into sj? and then well...i did as u all know. and today was the same. as they announced the first name. i knew i wasn't going to get in. previously i had worked out my chances were slim. but there was still that bubble there. bobbing about. then i dunno. it didn't burst. it leaked slowly. gradually. almost unconciously. then i realised it wasn't that impt afterall. all along i had decieved myself. until today. the truth was clear. there were more impt things than mopping about the results. the world doesn't just revolve ard u and me. on the other hand we don't revolve ard the world too. its like we rotate on the spot and we revolve too. yes. sigh. we shdn't be so selfish. the whole world is out there and we're worrying about trivial matters? when there's bird flu or sars. or tomoro is our doomsday. are we going to spend our last hour crying because we failed our exam?
and then u were there. and im grateful. a lot. and unintentionally u made me realise there were other things more impt.

waiting

sigh. im sick again. runny nose. sore throat. and hopefully no fever is gonna develop.

cca on fri homenursing again. :(

today our drama teacher said a lot of things not related to the topic n not really suitable for pple our age to hear...pollute our minds. waste our time some more.

lala. im in the same grp as steffi and hs. :) my course instructor called me last night. she sounded nice.

orientation this sun. what on earth r we doing? i don't have a clue bout what it is...

lots of things to settle tomoro. locker. training. cca. etc etc.
then maybe will be reporting late coz got choral night. but i don't feel like going..

somehow i forgot that the sec 1s were also going nco course. :(
our squad matters are too complicated to bother bout our juniors. maybe we let them down we didn't guide them as the sec 3s had. but hopefully we still remain as thier seniors. its quite sad actually.

vague

:( i feel weird. yes. that's right. what a weird feeling to feel weird.
hmm.

sometimes i just don't get it. when my anger and agitation and depression died away, i was willing. but before that i had thought i would nv ever forgive. yet i know, it's not ur fault. it's mine. all my fault.

Collide

sung by: howie day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

cereBROspinal fluid

i never knew it was spelt that way until today. man shi bai... i always thought it was cereBRALspinal fluid.

stroke:
-problems with speech and swallowing
-if asked to show teeth, only one side of mouth will move
-loss of power or movement in limbs
-sudden severe headache
-confused emotional mental state
-sudden or gradual loss of conciousness

happy birthday hs.

lost sheep

i knew it was too gd to be true.

Understand

My hand touched the metal
at once the rust vanished
sense of coolness
cascaded through me
silence sunk deeper
rooted to the spot

pain grew alongside
as the irritating weeds
swelling with time
filling with pus
and inside it is
sour, not bitter

tell me why
sometimes even i
don't understand myself
wind, hold my hand
help me fly
to someplace high

someplace better
someplace all beyond
my hopeful dreams
maybe someday
i'll understand