tears on my guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

Fly away

"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go,
I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time
and Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

-Corrinne May

clearly murky

"it's these lies that made others see through your heart..."

a life of drama

im going to move forward. nothing's going to keep me behind. jiayou!

...

i wonder if everything u did was deliberate. hmm ok. one day i will gather the courage and delete everything away permanently... for now.. im not trying to prolong something impossible but im just keeping things intact securing the only tangible remains of memories...

i keep saying im afraid but it's probably an excuse. i just don't want to go through the whole tiring process again. ok schoolwork =) it's not that im hardworking... eh maybe i m haha...but it's the only thing that can make me forget everything and at least give me a slight sense of satisfaction that i can never have in other areas...

can't wait to start on my nxt ilp and hoping hoping hoping that the US trip will be sponsored =) ...

so many things to deal with... im thankful there are pple to help me get through things...

i can stand. without you. maybe you were my pillar but now i've seen i have a whole ground and walls... perhaps the pillar was just auxilliary. to feel accepted instead of the severe lack of security...

arghhhh. what's wrong with me, nonsensical rubbish above... went for huangcheng! haha really gd acting and i didn't even realise the plays were so long till it ended at 10.30 ++ and i reached home at like 12 =s... hmm oh yeah! my heels almost killed me... but i still survived =) haha i shall not do that too often or risk the wrath of all the not-so-tall guys in my class =) lols.

ok i will look forward to every wedn... can't wait to see u guys and catch up and steffi my chi is deproving =(

26 degrees celsius

or that's what i think the temperature is in the day nowadays =( freaking cold and it doesn't even rain properly. hope the ares pullover comes soon.

talked to ma'am just now =) cheered me up quite a bit. haven't seen or heard frm her for like... erm half a yr? everytime she comes back to hc i seem to miss her... oh wells. maybe i just didn't recognise her. ma'am celestine thank you and yes i will enjoy my college yrs gd luck for fri!!! miss you haha =)

maybe it doesn't matter if you don't care. maybe there are others who do. maybe...

in any case holidays are coming. will make full use of it... kyna!! i need intellectual dosages... im overdue for all my medications... ok a lot of reading to do also... i wanna read where rainbows end... and eclipse... and watch ps i love you and watch leap yrs... oh wells...

it's like that isn't it? we never seem to get what we want in life... the retribution of mankind...