normal

haven't been blogging for long. the term of 'normal' is something that we often take for granted. like how does one even define normalcy in the first place? what the majority of the people do? like if everyone has short hair then everyone is normal and if you have long hair u are abnormal? then what about if everyone starts killing others? will murder become normal as well?

whatever it is, putting all technical terms aside, yes, i do wish things were back to 'normal' or maybe things will pass quickly so it'll be like normal again.
i know things are everchanging. if you stand in a river, and the water flows at your ankles, the water you feel now at this moment will never be the same in the next instant. if normal can be a point on the graph or a straight line, i rather it be a straight line because it stretches into infinity and you never have to worry about the range. a point however, is definite.

another issue would be a sense of guilt. you can be guilty because you haven't done anything but you can also be guilty because you've done something wrong. if a person falls into a river and you jump in to save him but he dies in the end, is it the same if you didn't save him at all? for both cases, you still feel a sense of guilt anyway. rite?

sometimes, i wish i don't think so much. haha. it feels abnormal.

dying dying dead...

please refer to the title.

white lies

'there are two reasons to not tell the truth, -- because lying will get you what you want and because lying will keep someonw from getting hurt.' -my sister's keeper
i really hope the 2nd reason is true.

'why do commercials say they (M&Ms) won't melt in your hands when they always do? Because everyone lies.' - The Tenth Circle

'It (cutting yourself) hurt, though not as much as everything else.'- The Tenth Circle

'Do I really have to risk my life for a chance to live?'- Phantom of the Opera

'You don't love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not' - My Sister's Keeper.

'It's crazy rite? to love someone who's hurt you? It's crazier to think someone who hurts you loves you.' - The Tenth Circle.

just finished reading the tenth circle. everyone thinks there are nine levels of hell. but there's actually the tenth cicle. it's for pple who have committed the worst crime.

one word can make such a difference.

im afraid of losing.

im afraid of losing you.

even one letter.

im really trying hard.

im really crying hard.

i've found another reason why my fav colour is white. i love white.