taste of life

ahh. i m supposed to be happy? surprisingly i m not. what's wrong wif me? pian1 pian1 yao4 chang4 fan3 diao4? dunno lah. but then...maybe i m quite a bit pleased. HUH? zi4 xiang1 mao2 dun4 man!!

report bk. :) not bad lah. i just have to maintain. DON'T DROP!!!! mum was late. gah. see lah? become 2nd last... Art teacher was speaking to her. liao2 so long before hoxy's parents finish. i xia4 ding4 jue2 xin1 must MUST pia during hols. no matter how busy. even if i have to revise under tent covers. must do very well so i can take 9 subjs. decided tt i si2 si3 also must take general art, otherwise i'll be greatly deprived. :)

heritage thingy. noooooooo idea what is it bout at all. the only thing i noe is tt there's CPB badge and it's a rare oppurtunity. and most impt, it's FREE!-.-'

the ncos have no idea how efficient their sec 2s r. heehee. we bought sec 1s and prcs the camp stuff long ago!!! haha. proud of us.

last day of term 2. camp meetings etc coming our way. *groans* i can't believe how time flies.

someone tell me when's the stupid homenursing course pls.

just realised smth. long long ago there was this little girl (aka me) who wanted to get into tt nice nice big big sch wif bouganvillas everywhere. then she heard frm her friends tt the sch is full of erm... people with interest in people of the same gender. -.-' then she decided to not go liao. but in the end....haha. ok u nowe the rest.

forte: jiin shiuan, me, za, xinyu, bernice, wang lu, qingxia, dani...and....dream321.
*blushes* nice grp. :)

beautiful galaxy

today's cca was much much better. dream321 was really nice today. so were the others. i think it's coz mid-yrs over le. i guess i still like the sec 4s better. no matter what, they did a lot for us. and i think even if some of us don't appreciate it we shd at least be grateful. our squad breaking? dunno. but just wanna say, i know this sounds clique, but united we stand, divided we fall. we r bonded together. bonded and i think after all the hard times we braved together, why can't we withstand anymore? i believe there's nothing impossible u noe. with 17 of us. together the mere coincedence or FATE that we ended up together. do u think we shd just do nothing bout that? i repeat: it's a bond we share.
to those who have given up hope on our squad: at least i can say there ARE ppl who r trying to save the squad.

churning,yearning river

2.4km run today. finally. it's all over. i improved by like 1 min conpared to last yr! :) good celia. even though still didn't get A...

my overall marks all quite ok. Quite. must try a bit harder fo geog, chinese and hist. yup. and pls, i must MUST face physics with a positive attitude otherwise i will end up failing 3 tests out of 4 like last yr. so cam lah! and that heatcapacity one. i failed by 1/2 a mark?!!! teachers always like to dun give us the 1/2 mark tt makes a great diff between a pass and a fail. gah.

jia you for my SIAs...

have to re-take maths test coz i FAILED!!! hopefully let me get a 30/50 next time. even though it will pull down my grades. B4 leh.

Say it isn't so

Say it isn't so-Gareth Gates

Skies are dark, it's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you're changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
This is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five, at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they closed the door behind you

Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone?
Will I be strong enough to carry on?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
This is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Miles and miles to go
Before I can say, before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
This is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so..

Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

togetherness

renuoin dinner on Sat night. at my relative's house. quite fun. feels like chinese new yr eve. with all my cousins.

we were competing with the adults in volume. they talk loud. we on the TV even louder. They raise their voices. we turn the TV even even louder. and it went on and on until we gave up. coz with my grandma, her voice can probably be heard across a whole football field...

i find i m more comfortable with boys younger than me. :) haha. and i found out that for boys their NAPFA standard so so so high lor. jump >200 cm stil cannot get A?!

my cousins very funny. going home, the conversation was somewhat like this:
A: u on the air con so big for what, very cold!
B: big? the air con doesn't have size...
A: ok fine. whatever. just don't turn it to high
B: why can't i?
A: i m freezing!
B: u r not! if i took a thermometer to measure i bet u won't be 0 degrees celcius
A: nobody said my freezing point was 0.
B: ya but ur body is 75% water.
A: and there's still the 25% so it can't be 0?!!!
.
.
.
lolz. and it went on and on.

today was sabbaticals! yeah. Philosophy for teenagers is fun! listen to this fallacy:
prove: girls r evil
girls=time x money
time=$
therefore girls =$x$
and we all noe $ is the root of all evil
money=square root of evil
so girls = evil!!!
-.-'

had Mrs Westvik. she's nice! and keep telling us stories.
chinese drama was interesting. watched an indian movie called Lagaan. very nice! i sound so clique only now how to use 'nice'...
btw. this was what happened yesterday. i saved it as draft...

burst

whole body aching. realised i excersised a lot this wk.
Mon: Pe,
Wedn: dance practice + training,
Thurs: Dance Practice + Dance lesson,
Fri: Dance practice during lunch AND recess (!!!) + NAPFA 5 items + CCA
Sat: swimming.
therefore, this whole wk was spent sleeping (Zzzzz) to regain back my energry.

yesterday i did not eat much except class breakfast in the morn and dinner at night. stomach was growling and gastric was back again. :( no time!!!

a lot of things to post.

NAPFA: sit-up: A, standing broad jump: C (deproved!!), pull ups: B, shuttle run: B, sit and reach: C (as usual, can't stretch lah!!)
now there's just 2.4 on Wedn.. i m scared.

today managed to balance mood a bit. swimming helps to de-stress :)

cca dun wan to post anything. i just dun have any little bit of interest in it anymore. feels like a chore. that's all.

class breakfast was nice! at rooftop. and Mr Tan came to sch though he was on MC for it. how nice. lots of leftover food though...

lots of teachers leaving us. 204 will miss them. quite sad lah. sec 2 is a crucial yr, yet we have to keep changing teachers. Mr Ngiow gone. Mr Ong's going too. well he is just a relief teacher. new teacher coming in July. Mrs Png off to New Zealand. change to some Miss Yao. (?) Miss Lye not teaching us too. Chem and bio over le mah. Mrs Wong coming back to teach us Physics. yuck. hate Physics. no. bad attitude. let's try tt again. i love Physics !!! ironic.

Mr Tan letting us watch Shrek 2!!! yeah. well...even though it's YET ANOTHER movie review... we're supposed to find examples of irony in the movie. hmm.

Mrs Chua came in after sch on Fri to talk to us bout our maths teacherSS. she's nice. why can't SHE be our maths teacher? instead we have to get a fresh graduate from NIE. a yet another MALE. i already have 5 male teachers thank u very much.

com is having probs again. sigh. not responding. not responding.

next wk is sabbaticals. gd. i think i need a break frm studies. and let's see how i carry all the things in my locker and under my table home.

sweat

today was a very unsucessful training. i was afraid we would get heatstroke under the strong sun so we stopped at the 5th round. hu shen and I lah. 13:27. lousy.
today's geog presentation was quite screwed. i thought we would finish too early so i told them to slow down. in the end we exceeded limit...gah. stupid me. and our meanie classmates were shooting questions. then when i ans (and as usual my ans r lousy) they said i was qiang2 ci2 duo2 li3. hmph.
realised tt i m the duty ic. argh... next time never predict tt i will be the ic coz IT COMES TRUE lor!! but anyway i still won't be the ic coz will be reporting late. (quite sad, fate's not on my side) NAPFA 5 items....must do well!!!! full-u. oh no.
2.4 tomoro. very worried. pressurizing myself. all ma'am's fault.... luckily hs dear is re-taking so she's taking with ME! haha.
starting to get sore throat. the weather?
sly's concert on 27th. shd i go? hmm. see when's CCA zai4 shuo1.

rubbish

do u noe tt i had actually replied u but then i realised i shdn't so i tore it up and threw it away.....

silver rain

today a few major things happened.
maths test was a bomb. Mr Ong was supposed to take Mr Tan's Lang Arts lesson to give us the test but very unfortunately somehow there was a mix up and we did not discover it until the maths test. that our maths test was during OM!!! so Mr Ong bargained for our OM period and gave us the test. even then we had taken up a lot of the period so our test had to cut into LA lesson. during the test coz 203 was having OM spontaneous prob so they were laughing a LOT AND VERY LOUDY. that was not supposed to be a ren2 sheng1 gong1 ji1, i m not blaming them. however, the fact was our already frustrated minds were even more distracted. most of us could not finish our tests in time. :( yup some things not too fang1 bian4 to post down here. we spent almost half of period of LA lesson in the toilets crying. one test paper was totally torn into half. see the frustration we faced? hate maths test. used to . and still do. btw this is going to be a long post.
Mr Tan for once said a lot of really nice things to calm us down. He said life has to go on. There's a time to cry, a time to laugh. But after crying don't forget to always continue with our life and 'return to normalcy'. quite true. i didn't cry. very strangely. i suppose i just can't be bothered with maths. yucks. still of course i hope HOPE to pass. coz i had spent quite a bit of effort studying. He also said that some of us probably had not had such a hard test since pri sch till now, but don't let this small test get us down. no matter how horrible and shitty the test is. He said that 204 had always been the best to him. had been. still is and will always be. :) how comforting. he said he had never insisted us to get some best class, cleanest class or punctual class bla bla.
He also took the opportunity to tell us bout integrity. no matter what integrity was still most impt. thank you Mr Ong and Mr Tan.
ya. tomoro is cca. yuck. ok lah. not tt bad but... dream321 wont't be there :(
sec 3s, thnx 4 guiding us. i noe what u mean. dun worry i'm ok.
sigh... such life.

cheer up people

went round and realised that many of my squadmates and seniors feeling down nowadays. quite saddening. must cheer up k? coz our feelings affect those of people around us and i m sure all of u dun want the people around you worrying as well. :) and too vigourous mood swings affect our hearts too :) must always look on the bright side of life. or rather, brightER side of life coz even if u think it's yi2 pian4 hei1 an4, there still shd be some gradient of black you3 mei2 you2? *winks*