quiz

Quiz team jia you!
my dear xinyu, steffi must do us proud! u all can do it!
lcpl Yunlin and lcpl Enqi also. :) Do your best can le4! don't stress urself out k?

dream321

yay! I've made a picture that i intend to host as my template. :) hs sorry to bother u with all the html stuff.

I know i don't have a tagboard and there is no place to comment. sorry. i'll try to change the template soon!

meanwhile i still haven't done all the work that i had wanted to do since i come home early today. was only busy doing the template. :S oh well. there's still a great sense of achievement. :)

now i know how sardines feel like

today's lessons were quite slack.
1. pccg, loads of announcements! yay. even though i was almost almost late for sch. not my fault lor, the bus was so slow then there's traffic jam also.
2. then nxt lesson was chi. debate! haha. just sat there and stone and listen and copy frantically at times.
3. then was pe during recess. first time we have pe on even wk, so i forgot to bring pe attire. sigh. poor me got marks deducted already. badminton's actually quite fun but i always spoil the game with my lousy skills.
4. then was recess. so shuang the whole canteen was ours. no long queqes. except ma'am was there too.
5. then after that was art!!yay.
6. lastly was la presentation. t
7. then i rushed my unfinished hw etc and rushed to cca.
no maths and science today! excluding the maths sia presentation. which i think i did quite badly.
cca's pt was...tiring. lessons were...disappointing. cheat our feelings. hmph. sigh i really must stop predicting things will happen. especially bad things. i don't know why they always come true. and then i still need to go and look for lcpl bout rm duty. keep forgetting. i forgot my pe attire, art materials and this. man. i think i m getting senile...
sat i will have NHT. why must i be stuck all alone with a zhonghua person and pple frm other schs? oh well. i hope i can still topo. this time i will mostly leave the leading to the other pple. later like camp topo...i kept leading pple the wrong way.
sun still need to go 'flag-selling' shou4 qi2. 10.00 to 6.00 why did i even volunteer in the first place? greedy for cip points and the $3? haha.

part and parcel of life

Somewhere outside i hear
thunder rumbling by
living in this constant fear
where hopes are never high

forgive and forget
forget and renew
is this how our lives should be?
is this how my scars will heal?

silly me. i should be revising now. geog test and first aid test tomoro. stop thinking bout things ok? before my poems get all weird and no one understands.

i don't get it

i dont't get it. my grades are deproving drastically. am i getting more and more stupid or what?

Am I slacking? no, obviously not. i've always been working very hard. i m a perfectionist. but then, maybe not as hard as last time. i dunno. argh! i m just not slacking lah. sigh. maybe i shd stop staying back so late in sch. gah. i m not even so crazy bout my dream321 already. i just don't get it. WHY????

hist test is tomoro. as usual i know i am going to flunk it. i always flunk hist tests. and maths tests. and physics tests. even my geog is getting worse. and i can't believe my languages are getting weaker too. *screams* what's wrong with me?

face it. i am getting stupid.

echo of the waves

nice of ma'am shuzhen to come back to tuition us. afterall even our ex-ncos couldn't be bothered. wished we had done cpr though. haha. as though there will be cpr practical during re-exam. but it's fun lor. k never mind....
lalala~
i forgot what i had wanted to post....
oh ya! yesterday was an impt day!! haha. exactly 2 months before something very special happens. :)
dance night was......erm......hard to describe. k. imagine me stoning in the hall with music blasting like mad and disco lights shining everywhere. hmm. out of place? yes. haha.
today's activities were....erm..... a bit boring, but still ok lah. coz no lessons.
and tomoro there'll be grand concert. gosh. once again. i m troubled by.....hs shd know. hehe. i've been pestering her with this prob all the time recently. shall just have to solve it myself this time. no squaddies going lor...will be so lonely.
i still can't remember what more i had wanted to post about.

ripples in water

never in my life have i worked past midnight.

never.




until yesterday.

that was the most horrible experience ever.

could barely open my eyes during class today. i think sir thinks that i've got an attitude problem towards maths. i strongly suspect that myself too.

identity

water flowing on
trying to drown my sorrows
mirror turning misty
i can't see who i was before

floating in some nothingness
as i close my eyes
time and memories glide past me
trying not to imagine

feet touched something hard
realisation hit me
vision blurring
wonder what brought the change in me

water flowing on
trying to drown my sorrows
mirrir turning misty
i can't find my identity

sigh...

Cluster of dewdrops reflect
every shimmer of light
like every glimpse of hope.
Each drop of honey
sweetens every moment;
time, stand still!
I want to etch
never to forget that
everlasting memory, of you.

i really need to stop thinking bout her liao.

sadness is goodbye.....

i m not in a good mood. today was a very strangely long and rough day. feelings i never ever felt before.... perhaps a little regret?
we had not treasured them enough at all. we shd not have blamed them for every slightest things they scolded or punished us for. we shd not have took them for granted. that they'll always be there. maybe they don't feel good themselves for punishing us, even when they know we might misunderstand them, they still have to do their part. maybe we weren't understanding enough. but whatever, all these are too late. there's a time to cry, a time to laugh, a time to leave, a time to die. maybe now, it's a time to move on. no use brooding on the past. perphaps my focus shd be on the present and the future. sec 3s have taken over. they are a totally different batch. with totally different styles. totally different people with different characters. maybe it's a time to adapt. easier said than done, even now a sickening voice inside me keep screaming that i don't want them to go, i don't want our sec 3 SENIORS to take over. i don't want to address them as ncos. i don't want to be separated frm my dream321. i would rather run 4 rounds around the sch + 250 pumpings than let them leave. but what choice do we have? this is life. i will miss everything. really. her cpr lessons. we never had enough of them. our first aid. it's really not gd enough! our footdrill. according to them it's perfect. perfectly disgusting. so why not stay and help us? oh they will never be forgotten. all 7 of them. in different ways we will all remember them and they will become part of our life. or rather have already been. but as yh says too, ren2 zhi3 neng2 pei2 ban4 ling4 wai4 yi2 ge4 ren2 zou3 yi2 duan4 lu4, zui4 zhong1 wo3 men2 bu2 shi4 hai2 dei3 li2 kai1? all gd things have to come to an end. maybe the end is now. after today i feel...more mature? perphaps time will wash away those feelings and heal all wounds. i don't believe it will make me forget, but at least i won't be haunted of her memory all the time. i m contented. fate gave me 1 yr and 7 months to be with her. what more can i ask for?